attention span of a cocker spaniel

yah.  that is me.  i have always been monstrously random, but usually there is enough adult stress in the way to slow it down.  lately, for whatever reason that stress in not slowing me down. God help me if I get 8 hours of sleep, i am unbearable.  need long run to calm my bouncing off the walls.
the good news is my job is super intense so does tend to kill it during the weekdays, but man.

i spent a week listening to Italian lessons being sung, in hopes that it would help me regain some of my skills.  so far, all i can remember is why i am going to venice.  por il lavoro.  (for work).
almost done with a great and deeply sad book, "The Boy Who Harnessed the Wind".  its actually about a young man from Malawi who created a technology for producing electricity from wind  in the remote parts of the country.  but it talks about his growing up and a famine that happened between 2000-2001.  yes a famine in the year 2000!  dont remember any news on the subject at all during that time. it is quite disturbing to me.
had to take a break, it was making me too sad.
so, tuesday i went to the library to round up some new reading materials, food for my brain really.
got a french grammar book this time and a very thick novel on the last empress in china.  haven't had a spare second of open eyelid time to check these out yet.  they just sit on my entryway shelf and stare at me as i fly in and out.  kind of comforting to know if i get to sit still there will be something there besides tv.
 
i think i feel a little frantic about making magic happen in the next few months in the job and housing department.  working off this verse lately.  . . the title of it in the NIV Bible is Peace and Joy.  that i like.

Romans 5:1-5
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we gained access by faith in this grace in which we now stand.  And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God.  3 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope.  5  And HOPE DOES NOT DISAPPOINT us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.


disappoint:  to defeat the fulfillment of (hopes, plans, etc.); thwart;frustrate: to be disappointed in love.

sometimes i wish i could go back to being 21 again with more patience.  but i realize that would be asking for 32 year old smarts in a kid brain.  plus, my perspective is so, so much rounder these days.  that i would never take back.
still, i have failed so hugely, the thought of a lifestyle of defeat is more than scary.  i am sort of out of chances.  so reassured by this verse.  maybe- no definitely! all this character i have been building has created an unfailing hope.

coolest things this week:  getting to deliver a couple of chairs to the National Air and Space Museum Garber Facility.  this place is in suitland (also known as sweatland) maryland.  the pink sheds are hilarious and shockingly high tech.  i had to got thru 2 arm gates to get there and the front door is like a meat locker door with an alarm.  if it stay open to long an alarm goes off because they are all climate controlled for the cool specimens they have.  how funny it is to talk furniture with a bunch of scientists, researchers and archivists.  that is total joy.  oh, did i mention there is a huge polaris missile out front?