chaos and care, all in one bag

Has anyone noticed that Chaos and Care don't necessarily come at separate times?  What a pisser. I guess you could say that is a good thing.  I mean, when do you need the most care?  When you are in chaos.But really, can't it just be one or the other?While the volcano is exploding and landing lava all over my life and heart, i am supposed to recognizing the care and provisions that are helping me float in the lava without getting scorched and dead.Not trying to be bitter here. I guess dead is bad.  Just feel like I am rushing from one extreme to the next constantly.  My dream for life is to have the luxury of standing still and absorbing some of provision and straight up blessing that already exists.God, can you help me out with that?Realized just today that I actually need another month of working 7 days a week.  Honestly I dont think I could take it, but my budget spreadsheetsays otherwise.  Too bad I already gave notice!  frickin frack. So here's prayer B.  God can I please be done with severe stress and stretch over dollars and cents.  I promise to be a good steward.  You have provided an awesome job and it pays the bills.Just have to get over the little mountain of moving expenses.  I would really like to be able to help build someone else up in their finances.  Dont like being a drain.