monday

you know the day you wake up and you feel like you have been grinding your teeth to the gums.  that is today!  i dont want to work.  i dont want to walk dogs. i dont want to talk to anyone. i really did not want to remove myself from my bed, even though i went to bed early.  just want to get in my car and drive and keep driving until i hit the pacific ocean and jump in.
just have to make until 4.30am thursday.  i can do this.
so i have two bits of verbage for myself to remember.. .

first - let me get out the (dare i say) anger with a little verse from Psalm 109. . .

i'm always a little surprised by the vehement in this verse.  but right now, it is perfectly descriptive.  and since it is in fact included in Psalms, then i figure it is acceptable too.

 O God, whom I praise, 

       do not remain silent,

 ² for wicked and deceitful men

       have opened their mouths against me;

       they have spoken against me with lying tongues.

 ³ With words of hatred they surround me;

       they attack me without cause.

 ⁴ In return for my friendship they accuse me,

       but I am a man of prayer.

 ⁵ They repay me evil for good,

       and hatred for my friendship.

 ⁶ Appoint an evil man to oppose him;
       let an accuser stand at his right hand.

 ⁷ When he is tried, let him be found guilty,

       and may his prayers condemn him.

 ⁸ May his days be few;

       may another take his place of leadership.

 ⁹ May his children be fatherless

       and his wife a widow.

 ¹⁰ May his children be wandering beggars;

       may they be driven ^[d] from their ruined homes.

 ¹¹ May a creditor seize all he has;

       may strangers plunder the fruits of his labor.

 ¹² May no one extend kindness to him

       or take pity on his fatherless children.

 ¹³ May his descendants be cut off,

       their names blotted out from the next generation.

Second: Abe is awesome.

"Gentlemen, why don't you laugh? With the fearful strain that is upon me night and day, if I did not laugh, I should die." ~ Abraham Lincoln

walter shoots for SOS fundraiser.  raised about $1500 for to support kids around the world in education and nutrition etc.

from the left: my co-hort in fashion anastasia, christy, an jennifer.  actually the three of us were just jumping into christy's shot to loosen her up for her photo shoot.  =)