No Contemplating. Just Do It!

Ding, ding, ding! We have a winner. I just solved the world crisis that is my life. This is exactly what I do everytime. Decisive yes. Stupid? Ahhh. YES!

Thinking back on the decisions I have made (who to marry, moving, places to work, buying a house). . . Every single one of those decisions was made in a split second from shear instinct. Often, I will make the decision right at the time it is asked of me. I spend the rest of the time leading up to the answer sorting thru the to dos and how much this one is going to cost me.

All the way back to college, I can remember Costa calling me up one day and talking about studying abroad in Italy. I hung up the phone and called my dad and told him.
Said I have no idea how much or any of the details, but I would really like to go.
He said he would do everything he could to help. Was like a snowball from there. Went to the meeting. Found out costs were pretty moderate. Worked hard. Got help from Dad and went to Italy for 3 months. Costa, on the other hand, hung up the phone started contemplating the financial realities and time it took away from her major. It just didn't make sense and she decided not to pursue any further. Such a nice practical girl!


Its like a matchstick. I get an idea and instead of blowing it out with all the details of practicality, a bonfire comes alive and I watch it burn almost everytime. Do have a good head about right vs wrong and dont even desire most things that are silly. But things of interest and even moderate possibility are completely up for grabs.

Eventually I have talked myself and everyone around me into this new step in my life. Remarkably, I am terrible at talking anyone else into doing something for themselves. They just stand there with their hands clasped over their open mouths and gasp/giggle at me and my antics. That will never work. Just dont have time. No money. I mean really. . . .

This paradigm really needs to shift. I should be much harder to convince. For the people around me, much less persistance should avail. Not asking for too, too much. We are talking adventures, trip to Europe, coffee dates, moving to a foreign land, going to school etc. These are fun things people!

Starting to think all these ideas and moving about is wearing the people around me out. . .
Bonfires are cool, but most often there are only ashes left at the end.

Peace out week. Glad to see you go.