you know what i mean. not alone, but feels so lonely. i think i have more friends now than ever before, but everything is new. today i hated that everything was new. i even for a brief moment thought i would be better if things could back to being the same, even though it was bad. at least it was familiar. i am so worn out of everything new.
i want my real life back. this one is so cool, but feels fake. like i am living in a movie or story book.
i have a job interview next week. maybe if i am rich, i will feel better. you never know.
God help me to feel comfortable in this place for awhile. i know this is where i belong for now. just want to feel like there is a definite purpose for me. like i am not just a run away, far from home with no purpose other than escape.
going to sleep so i can wake up and run again. at least i will have an endorphin rush on the way to work. . .
I wish I could steal you away for a cup of Java in a cheesy little diner where we talk and talk and overstay our welcome. :) I miss you horribly and think of you daily. I actually thought of you yesterday as I was listening to the radio. There was a song playing called "There is a Way" by NewWorldSon. Every word was written for you in this moment. Love you, Rissy.
ReplyDeleteHere are the lyrics:
You say love is just a word, just four letters in a row.
Just a thing that people say, or they never tell you so.
And you use every excuse, to let nobody in.
Now this cloud you bring around, has become your only friend.
And everybody saying that it's going to go away, but it don't go.
And everybody's telling you one day it's going to change,
but you don't know, if it's really going to end.
But there is a way, there is a spark,
there is a hope that you can hold on to.
There is a lifeline come to the rescue,
just like a hand that's waiting for you.
And if you believe in this I promise that you won't be alone.
There is a way, the truth and the life, and the way.
But if love became a man, if the word had flesh and bone.
Would you recognize His face, if He came to bring you home.
You think you're all alone, gotta do it on your own riding solo.
Is there someone you can call, when you stumble and fall?
Cause you don't know, if you'll be getting up again.
There is a way, there is a spark,
there is a hope that you can hold on to.
There is a lifeline come to the rescue,
just like a hand that's waiting for you.
And if you believe in this I promise that you won't be alone.
There is a way, the truth and the life, and the way.
Don't you think your life's worth saving?
Don't you know that love's amazing?
Don't you want to lay your troubles down?
Lay them down.
If I thought love was just a word, I might feel the same way too.
But there's so much more than that, and it's waiting here for you.
There is a way, there is a spark,
there is a hope that you can hold on to.
There is a lifeline come to the rescue,
just like a hand that's waiting for you.
And if you believe in this I promise that you won't be alone.
There is a way,
there is a way,
there is a way.
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Come on, there is a way.
(Background) Truth and the life and the way.
(Background) Truth and the life and the way.
There is a way,
there is a way.
(Background) Truth and the life and the way.
There is a way.
(Background) Truth and the life and the way.
Ooooh, there is a way back home.
(Background) Truth and the life and the way