well, son of a very nice lady!

eventful weekend, followed by hilarious tuesday.  maybe i am supposed to be gathering research for a very entertaining book?  otherwise all of this swirling, might just be kind of irritating. . .hahaha!  huh.  feeling a little lost today after a healthy dose of home, slash utter change of perspective. a little dizzy from spinning.  think it wont be fully digested and clarified for a couple weeks, but for now i feel a lot less like a wanderer.  been turning circles the last few weeks, when snap!  i got it.

first things first.  absolutely no more polo shirt boy for me.  was sort of on the fence because of the convenience and persistence.  but a certain tall visitor changed my mind.  there is no fence to be on. (earmuffs b!=)) as long as a person like him exists, there is no reason to be wishy washy.  what a waste of time.
think i might have needed the adult rebellion.  dont like that i am so dense as to need ridiculous far reaching attitude adjustment.  but i clearly did.  mari and malia said my attitude seems a lot more positive about the possibilities for a real, two way friendship/relationship with a person of male of origin.

its hard to change, you know that?  it is so much easier to sit in whatever mess surrounds you.  but i feel fully fired up to charge forward and onward to some new goals in my life.

one of those goals is my profession.  i do still really enjoy my job, but was sharply reminded on friday that i do not work for myself.  and bowing down is still the order of the day.  so i shall play this game because i need to and because most days are joyous challenges that entertain my sorry brain function to the max.
but with a very intent and thoughtful goal on formulating a company of my own inside the next 2 years.  got to write it down so i can feel bad about it when it comes and goes! just kidding.  I think if i really work at it and develop the right business relationships it will be possible.  the work is essential.  i need another one.  can't keep coming up broke if i want to boss myself.  so here we go. ..

 hairy framework for my "action" steps (remind me to never use that term again. ewe)
1.  get a part time gig - sucks, but now i have a real reason to lose sleep.  i can do this.
2.  draw up framework for brand concept (furniture made for our tiny in city houses).
3.  draw up some sketches of furniture that would work in my house and beyond.
4.  find a willing client #1, 2, 3 to develop portfolio on their dimes. =)
5.  interview manufacturers to find a partner that could contract my designs consistently and allow me to make a great cut on my fabulous line, while building the broader business on the east coast.
6.  now find a manufacturer on the east and west coast.  this line is going to be fully sustainable to meet level
certification standards, not least of which by being made within 500 miles of DC and NY and Seattle and Portland.

running to meet the dear mechanic who is going to ride in the tow truck with me to try and get my car out of the garage is sitting in on Connecticut Ave.  6' ceilings sucks for the tow truck. =)

BJ at the Lincoln Memorial yesterday.  Think he got some pretty good footage of people and their sweaty backs.  It was close to 100 degrees and about 50% humidity!  Lovely.